Late night musings…

Late night musings…

For the sake of getting to sleep…

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It’s amazing how far an email will go. You know, I contemplate writing the governor general every once and a while, then realize I probably shouldn’t spend a long time on something that no one will read. I mean, of course I exclude this website from that list of stuff.

However, on occasion and mostly out of frustration, I do write the seldom thought or idea down. Most of the time it’s to get it out of my head and it’s really only for myself. This one included (I just happen to be writing it here, rather than… wherever people wrote things before weblogs). There are occasions that these frustrations manafest in letters. Sometimes open letters to every annoying person in the world. Sometimes to everyone about every annoying person in the world. Sometimes they’re about real issues… and sometimes I send them to people.

I sent an email to the president of my school, not a student president… like THE president. Like the actual guy who runs the place. I don’t consider him just a dude, although, I’m sure he is… He’s more than that, as the school paper has told me. He really is a great leader and an inspirational one at that (something that is rare, I think). I recently, as of last year, realized myself to be an inspired person. I’ve always been told, by my parents, teachers, and old people (sorry mom&dad) in general… that I can be anything that I want, the only thing stopping me… is me. It was kinda just water under the bridge, never really hit home. I never really realized it was true. Realized is the wrong word, believed is better. Until, that is, I met an inspired student at my current school. He had a plan, and he was driven. His inspiration was inspiring. If that makes sense?

It hit me on a deep level. The people who achieve success are the people who go after it. It’s not about what the dream is, it’s not about that great idea… It’s about the pursuit of the great idea. What leads to success is chasing success. It’s going the extra mile, the mile most people are too lazy to go for. It’s continuing when others give up, and pushing yourself further just as you are about to give up. That’s where success comes from. And the fact is, or so I believe, that most people don’t go that mile (or kilometer). The only things stopping us… is us. Just like everyone says. We can be whatever we want, do whatever we want, whenever we want, we just have to work harder than everyone else to do it. That’s how people achieve success, and why can I be one of those people? I guess, I can… if I try as hard as I can. Right?? And so could you…

So sometimes I wonder, if something is wrong and you’re complaining about it… Why not do something? At least an attempt is better than the average moaner, right? So on occasion I’ll write a letter, out of boredom or frustration. Just a way to voice my opinion. Even more rarely I’ll propose something. I never expect responses from any of these.

I throw out wild ideas, because… why not? I mean a $100 laptop was insane now it’s reality. Star trek communicators were science fiction until they weren’t. Sometimes the wild ideas work! Sometimes I email the president of my university, and he replies wanting a sit down meeting to discuss further. Sometimes, I feel as I’ve bitten of more than I can chew.

So I think to myself: What should I do? Nothing, and be like every citizen who has complained about their democratic system? Water things down and hope I’ll be able to handle something less effective, less crazy, and it wont solve the initial problem? Or go for broke and be the crazy guy preaching for something better? I mean if you want to make a splash: do you do nothing, drop a pebble, or throw a rock? That’ll depend on how scared you are of it landing on your foot.

The truth is, I’m scared of this landing on my foot. It’s deterring me from throwing the rock, as I’m sure it would most people. But isn’t this where I should keep going? Give it a really honest effort, and see where it leads me? Even if it’s impractical and unreasonable? I mean they are synonymous with visionary.

So, I’m scared: I’m scared I’ll fail; I’m scared I’ll look like an idiot; I’m scared it wont work. But I’m doing it anyways, even though I don’t really want to. Hopefully my wings aren’t made of wax.

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